Quiet Mouth

"Quiet mouth, loud mind."

Welcome to the world of an Introvert and a Gemini, it might not be as uncommon as you would think. I think. Bear in mind the concept of Horoscopes are by definition a novelty.

Gemini’s are typical portrayed as twins. The sociable, communicative and ready for fun twin. I unfortunately am the serious, thoughtful, restless twin. The introvert. Here are just a few things that people find awkward about me.

I feel that people can be draining – usually need to recharge after. I don’t typically encourage small talk with strangers, I always internalize my thoughts before sharing with others. And most awkward, I think to others is that they expect me to talk. – Once again not a fan of small talk.

When young, I would say about 10ish. I was always running, laughing, and making friends. Not a care in the world. What is there to worry about, roof, clothes, food, friends, toys, and my huffy bike. So full of life.

Then everything came crashing down upon my young mind. I remember being betrayed, and feeling abandoned. As an adult moving away is not a world changer. As an impressionable child this is everything. I felt I had lost everything.

Keep in mind I was a child, but I never told anyone how I felt. I went through several years of depression and when I finally got out of it, I was never the same. I didn’t talk much anymore, if at all. My life was and still is lived inside my head.

I tried to return to the person I was before, but couldn’t. I think that might be the only thing about a Gemini that cannot be changed once salted.

I read a lot of stories, I wrote a lot of stories, and still occasionally write one or two. Maybe in my Will and testament, I will share them with the world.

Well my point of all this is, if there is a point, that after living with a façade for so long, it’s the only way I know how to be.